I'm writing this in hopes that you'll be nosy enough to dig around my room if I leave. If not, at least I got it out of my system.
You've been good to me, maybe better than I deserve, and "thank you" doesn't go far enough. I don't think I have the right words to say it. I hope maybe I've been able to show it in other ways.
I'm not good at this.
Saying goodbye isn't what this is for. If I'm gone, I'm gone, and you'll figure out how to deal with that and move on. You helped me move on. You helped me figure out how to love again and how to appreciate someone who's just as fundamentally alone as I am. And I'm damn sorry I'm leaving you alone again.
It's taken me a few hours to write this and I don't know what else to say. You're beautiful. You're special. You're something I've never seen before and I doubt I'll ever see again. Thank you for sharing that with me. I hope I'll never forget you.
Take whatever you want, let Tony and the kid fight over the rest.
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To Bela
Date: 2013-07-18 09:30 pm (UTC)I'm writing this in hopes that you'll be nosy enough to dig around my room if I leave. If not, at least I got it out of my system.
You've been good to me, maybe better than I deserve, and "thank you" doesn't go far enough. I don't think I have the right words to say it. I hope maybe I've been able to show it in other ways.
I'm not good at this.
Saying goodbye isn't what this is for. If I'm gone, I'm gone, and you'll figure out how to deal with that and move on. You helped me move on. You helped me figure out how to love again and how to appreciate someone who's just as fundamentally alone as I am. And I'm damn sorry I'm leaving you alone again.
It's taken me a few hours to write this and I don't know what else to say. You're beautiful. You're special. You're something I've never seen before and I doubt I'll ever see again. Thank you for sharing that with me. I hope I'll never forget you.
Take whatever you want, let Tony and the kid fight over the rest.
Love, Clint